If the whole world were to tell me that I was the only one who felt this
way, I would smile, cry myself to sleep that night and wake up glad that only I
know how this feels. But I read books. And too many of them are filled with
girls and boys trying to meet and exceed the expectations and wants of those
around them. And not being able to. Trying to be a good Christian, a good son
or daughter, a good student, a good athlete, a cool boy/girl in school, etc.
and failing and crying when nobody sees. Sometimes it's not just what others
expect, but who we want to be too. And sometimes who we want to be is placed on
the wish-list while we work on those people we "have" to be.How, oh
how, should we balance everything? What should we do to not go crazy or more
likely severely depressed from all the constant pressure?
Believe me, if I had all the answers I would tell you. If I knew how to skip
by those depressing moments and always be content with who God made me to be, I
would have done it a long time ago. Life would be cool. I would have to work on
not being prideful, but I would have said a relieved "goodbye!" to
all those unpleasant things called "expectations I simply cannot live up
to". But I don't have all the answers. And I get frustrated often enough
that I'm not as good as I could be, not the someone God and my parents and
others want me to be.
The only answer I know is
turn to God. He won't put us down and scowl at us
for not being perfect. He knows we can't be. He'll be as much by our side when
we fail and make mistakes as He is when everything's going well. We need to
trust Him.
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