~Saturday Stories~
Dear God,
My thoughts are scattered.
The to-do list is huge.
I don't know what I'm doing.
I haven't been reading
The Bible consistently.
You still hear me, though, right?
I don't have too much time
Left with my family.
I feel so torn. Again. Again.
I feel so happy sometimes
Then I cry in the bathroom
Because there is a lock there
Dear God,
I have nothing figured out
No matter how hard I try
Please help
I know you are with me
You hug me so tight
Even if I don't see it right now
And in the middle of my ache
You will never leave
Thank you. I can't thank you enough
How about you? Have you ever felt utterly helpless? How has God made His presence known to you lately?
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It's so crazy. At times, I feel so hopeless and start to wonder how God loves me at all. I mean, I don't deserve him. He's so loving and kind and he's always there if I want to talk with him.
ReplyDeleteSometimes, I put on Hillsong Worship Elohim. Near the end it gets going and I start to get this feeling of pure joy and a feeling that I want to never leave. It's like he tells me that he's right here and that I can look forward to being with him forever. Forever in a place with no pain, no fear, no guilt. I can't wait, and I feel God's presence when I put that song on and have a longing to be with him. He's with us even when we mess up and don't deserve to have a friend like him. He'll never leave and that gives me hope. Hope of a forever friend. :)
I remember the times when I felt so hopeless and went somewhere i could be alone. I used to cry and ask God why I feel so alone. I tell him about the situations I'm confused about and I know he listens.
Thank you for being so open! It IS kind of insane how God loves us even though we do no deserve His love at all. I hope He reminds you of His presence in your life, both through songs and other stuff.
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome, and thank you for this post! It's amazing! He never gives up on us even when we mess up big time. We feel like our sin's too much, but his love and mercy is so much greater than that.
ReplyDeleteI hope he does too! Same for you, friend. :)
God Bless!
I relate so much to that first stanza! My mind often feels like it's everywhere and my to-do list is never ending and I don't know what my life is and AAAHHHHH.
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Thank You for the reminder to turn to Him in the midst of all of it. That He hears our plaintive cries for help, and no matter what it feels like, He's there. :)
Alexa
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That's too bad! I definitely know how that feels like...I'm so glad I could be a bit of encouragement!
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